Why do I like her?

A very complicated question and answer...

Well, we start off as a colleague, then friend, then abang and adik and thennnnn, hehehe... Here we goes...

She is good at speaking and listening (a good listener I guess), pampered enough even though sometimes she asked if she is spoilt (no lah, I don't think so), naughty, her hair smells good together with her hands (can I say this in my blog? heh, who cares!), friendly and understand me and my busy job... Huhuhu...

The most important thing I like about her is that she is 'she'... Zetti Adela that I've known since the beginning until today...People says that love is blind and I kind of agree with that but the blindness is good because at least we have someone to guide us to our destination right? And I know she is always there for me... Thanx baby.... I wev you so much...

p/s: This pic was taken during Intan and Din's post wedding photoshoot somewhere at Rompin, Pahang... A very nice view there... (She said my hand looks yummy in this pic? Hehehe...)

This is one of the picture that I like the most... Taken using my handphone (I really miss that handphone) and edited by my shayang.... Nice kan? Well it was during one of Epsilonian program that we snapped this picture = English Adventure Race a.k.a E.A.R... (no wonder he's big, he eats people.... huhu... caption from baby butukkkk)

Really miss those moments.... Sob... Sob...

H.A.P.P.Y... Yeay...

Done with the convocation day. Everything went well. Before the convocation, I went to a wedding with my shayang. Surprised because they had the 'nafiri' thing. Like a royal wedding.

Before I forgot, let me say thanks a lot to my dear because she had willingly fetch me from home, drive me to the wedding and then to the convocation (even though it's actually me who did the driving part. Huhuhu.) At 4, she drove back to the venue to fetch me (this is quite funny because she went to my house thinking I was there. Wat la you sayang. Hehehe.)

Then we had a very nice walk at EC Mall. Looking for engagement ring. Nice kan that wedding band?

After hours there, we went to 'pasar malam' and she bought me my favourite... Thanks again shayang. You really know how to pleased me. Went back, then ZZZzzz...

The next afternoon, went to another wedding with her (I like the chair at the dining table for the pengantinla. Very nice and grand) Went to Terminal Makmur sending her brother, again met with Mr. Zol (it seems nice now. Syukur Alhamdulillah) then heading straight to Megamall watching movie "The Death Race" (lots of yummy2 people in that movie kan shayang?)

The last thing, went to the bank and unintentionally checked my balance, wahaha, gaji dah masuk... Yes2... Syukur... Btl2 tgh dah kering ni gaji plak dah masuk... All in all, kena berjimat cermat as we had planned to settle down soon. Mwahx2, wev you so much shayang...

post continuum = crap... hahaha...

Yesterday was a boring day for me... Been to the rehearsal for UMP convocation, stayed there for nearly half of the day without doing anything and just looking at people doing their job... Huh...

But at the same time I feel glad, a real happiness as I had catch up back with my relationship.... Thanks shayang.... Really appreciate your patience in 'entertaining' my syndrome... Should I call it a syndrome? Bolehlah kot... Hehehe...

We had a long talk last night even though we usually talked almost at that duration nearly everyday... Wakakaka... (We are addicted to talking to each other kan? I wonder how it's going to be when we are married? Hmmmm....) Mostly the conversation is about our plan to settle down by 'very soon'.... (Surprised me the suggestion came from the mouth of mama.... Huhu)

InsyaAllah...

I don't really know how to start for today. I had been haunted by my past which is not very good, I mean in the relationship term.

I had been dumped before, sad, neglected, sorrow, lonely...

But I knew that after all the bad things, I still can get through it. Even though it is hard and now, I think I am getting that 'stupid' phase again in my life. Being left out by my own gf whom I am not sure about her feeling towards me yet. Whom I think still in memories of her previous love. Whom can not move on (hopefully she started to as I am afraid I can not stand no more) and whom is looking at this life from her previous view.

You, please don't be like this. I need you. I know it's hard for me to change but I'm trying my best to. You know how I'm not used to have a gf who have a male friend-close friend? I know it's hard for you to forget all the memories but you need to try hard for it. You have to accept the new life, new bf and new surroundings. I'm not like 'him' who can let you go out easily with another guy, having dinner date, spending time because I am not a believer that man and woman can be bestfriend as they have the tendency to fall in love with each other and if I'm not mistaken, we happened to be like that before right?

This week is a very busy week for me. I have to finish drafting all the invitation letters for the ICON HCD 2009 (www.ump.edu.my/iconhcd2009), a convocation to attend in the weekend together with convocation expo, my personal life which is not very good lately. I don't know. Really, I'm exhausted. Feel like going back to Perak and have my own sweet time there. Feel like turning off my mobile phone so that no one can get me. Feel like going on for a vacation alone.

Many things in my mind right now and the 'best' thing, I'm alone. Like I have no one (for you sayang).

I know I might be over emotional at this particular time but I don't know how and where else I can voice out everything. Thanks for reading my crap. Thanks to you my dear because of 'leaving' me 'alone' in this moment. Really appreciate that. Chowwww.

a sad chapter in my life.....

I don't know what is going on with me and her... Am I being too jealous???? Maybe.... I feel so inferior right now.... I know it's not good to curse but I really feel like cursing today.... Huh...

I asked her what is wrong with me, then she said nothing (this is for her bestfriend = whom she is so close to and kind of proposed her before and very well protected by her....)

Next, her ex bf... Hah... This is another chapter... I really mean it... A chapter.... She keep denying that she still had feelings for him even though I asked her for few times.... One of the best example is through her 'Friendster'...

I know I'm not a perfect person.... But I'm trying to.... If you are reading this entry (I know you would and you know who you are), please understand me and my feelings and give me a chance.... Because without a chance, anything can be impossible... Move on k.... Please....

Hello everyone....

Last weekend, I spent my time with my shayang @ kL.... Actually xnak pegi pun but she insist me to be there as she has a workshop @ UiTM Shah Alam.... It's also a good chance for me to meet my 'bro' Anuar who is currently studying @ KPTMkL... Hehehehe....

We, the three of 'bulat' brothers and sister went to Pavilion and the infamous Petaling Street... Besh2... The best'est' part was when we were at Bukit Bintang and suddenly I heard somebody is calling my name... Guess who???? My real sister with her frens... Calling up my name like Bukit Bintang is our 'territory' (you know the meaning of this kan shayang???? Wakakaka....)

And thennnnnn, we watched the shuffler performances and everything....

Next day, I and my shayang went to Kelab Golf PDRM @ Taman Tasik Titiwangsa attending her friend's friend wedding.... Nice kan over there??? (for youla for sure)....

Next agenda, shopping time... For real, it's Ayong's time... Huhuhu... As she is getting married in about a week... We went to Jalan TAR and spent almost 4 hours there when a 'thing' happened and me and my shayang had to go back to Setiawangsa meeting her family and 'MR. ZOL'.... Sweating like a ... man over there.... But still ok lah....

We went back to Kuantan around 8pm and reach there by 12pm... A very pleasant driving (thanks to you shayang for making me all awake during my drive... K.O.D.I)....

A new episode in UMP...

It's been four days now I had left KPTM... Everything goes as usual except my new and challenging surroundings....

New tasks had been given to me and the best part is, I was appointed as the secretary for an international conference... ICON HCD 2009 (International Conference in Human Capital Development 2009)... Huhuhu.... But I'm looking at it in a positive way... This might be my chance to get an early confirmation status... Hehehe....

I'm trying my best for it and hopefully, I can do the best for everything... Pray for me eh....

- KPTM + UMP....

Sayonara KPTM....

A very nice place to be where i learnt everything here. Friendship, foe, hardworking, love, hatred and the list can goes on... Huhuhu...

29th July 2008 will be my most memorable time in my life coz this was the last day of my KPTM world... As usual i start the day with lots of energy, patience and excitement but again, this will be my last 'adventure' in that surrounding.... Why 'adventure'? Well, you have to be there and get your own feeling why I said KPTM is an adventurous place... Huhuhu.... Leaving behind my great legacy... My beloved girlfriends.... Heh, sayang, jangan marah eh coz you will always be my beloved special girlfriend and the worst, all the students' activities that I love so much....

Xpe2, maybe I can do something better at UMP (Universiti Malaysia Pahang)... A very new place to me, with new surroundings and new people but for sure, this is IPTA, where everything being perceived as important here especially when you are in the academic world...

Oklah, need to go to my class... Wish me luck then....